I am overwhelmed with responsibilities in the work life. I am almost done with school, yet barely performing to meet the bare minimum.
Yet it's interesting to be on this brink of my own self discovery. I have identified two major obstacles that have been everpresent in my life, and I have accepted them mentally and physically. I am in the process of accepting them emotionally, and eventually my spirituality will redevelop these challenges to work in my favor.
Ever since I have made a link between these two challenges in a different hemisphere of my existence, I have had the strangest dreams, the strangest transitions of energy, the strangest reawakenings within myself. My dreams consisted of the 3 year old child within me defecating an enormous amount, but in a solid and gentle tone. It was simple, it represented a release, and it was beautiful (probably the only time I will use the word for such a topic). I also dreamed of the beautiful graveyard flowers, the purple balls of flower and visiting the graves of all that have passed away in my life. But they were all at the same gravesite (though this is not reality), and my grandfather's was the most prominent. I need to pay attention to this message.
The universe has brought my biological mother back into my life during this period of my healing process. It's interesting how the energy of the world shifts to support your growth.
I am ultimately honoring my energy, and my need for rest. I am neurotic in every book and in every culture on this planet, and it is my ultimate journey to find balance. Therefore, today was good. I got nothing accomplished, but I did find simple joys in spending a large amount in a hobby, and creating a beautiful jewelry piece for a lovely friend of mine. It reminds me of lei making. I also found the simple joy of making baja fish tacos, which nourished my mind. I will honor these two joys and take them with me to the dreaming world.
